september 1

somehow we managed to make it through today.  the hardest day.  the busiest day.  the most stressful day.  first thing this morning kevin and the kids raced to get last minute things done while we still had my car.  then they raced back for breakfast with giuliana and jay, and we raced through a breakfast of yummy blueberry pancakes.  they came for my car.  we cleaned and cleaned and cleaned.  the movers loaded.  brooke played at hanna's and gavin napped in hanna's bed.  the movers pulled out.  we cleaned some more.  then we cried.  big heavy sobs.  there were few words.  we didn't need them.

it was hard, but we did it.  we did it together, just the 4 of us.  and i'm proud of us for that.

there is something merciful about the actual process of moving.  in the span of 3 days, i've gone from feeling like this is a home i never want to leave, to feeling like it's just a house full of boxes and no longer our home, to being ready to leave the house because it didn't feel like ours anymore.  ready to move on...

we said our goodbyes to our neighbors.  we swept up the last of the dirt.  we left the keys on the counter.  we said goodbye to our house, and we walked out the door together.

anastasia drove us into the city where we are staying for the weekend.  kevin and i quietly cried most of the way, silently saying our goodbyes to snoqualmie.

we arrived at hotel andra and got settled into our suite.  the kids were excited.  we went to serious pie, which is probably the only thing that could have made our hearts feel a little less heavy - the best pizza one could have - right across the street from our hotel.

from here it gets easier, if only little by little, it will get easier.